The Daily Deskhenge:
Well, sh*t. Ok, so I was shuffling the deck and the Tower jumped out. The friggin’ Tower (on the right). It’s the change I can’t do anything about. As if to drive home that point, I asked what would help mitigate the effects of the Tower and I pulled the 9 of Swords (on the far right–it’s the poor dude sitting up in bed with his head in his hands). There’s nothing I can do to mitigate the effects of the Tower. It’s gonna be what it’s gonna be, and I just need to be me through it all. This morning I explored the wonders of hating everybody and wanting to breathe fire, but that didn’t make me happy. I received some wisdom that suggested I needed to back away from my desk for a little bit, to go for a walk, to breathe and escape a little before saying (or typing) something I’d regret. That helped, thank the Gods. I also started a private blog to rant in when I’m at work, which also helped. Rant, rant, rant. But whatever the Tower is here to teach, it’s not going away until it’s good and ready and I can either like it or lump it. Or, which is more likely, I can lump it or lump it.
The card on the left, the Ace of Swords, is the answer to my “what will exacerbate the effects of the Tower?” question. This is *clearly* not a problem/issue/event I’m going to think my way out of. New ideas are not the answer, old “new” ideas are not the answer, and in fact ideas period are probably not the answer. This is a time for *doing* and feeling, not thinking. The image that’s coming up for me right now is being burned at the stake. You can’t get off the fire by thinking yourself off. You have to ACT.
The runes I threw emphasize the cards. Before I threw them, I asked “What’s going on here?” and look what landed right above the Tower card: the Change rune. Change is going on here, and it’s happening whether I like it or not. So I’m going to try to focus on the changes that I WANT (e.g., more intimacy and relationship in my life, more fun, more entertainment) because as long as this sh*t is in upheaval mode, I might as well try to get something great out of it.